if only

if only I could explain you how much I feel to you.How strong clear and true my feelings are.I am so thankful that my life gave me a chance to meet you.Unfortunatly you do not feel the same way.I m trying to be better .I m trying to change ,to grow up,to learn more.Honestly. I m ready.I m ready for love, for feelings,for relationship.I m so fucking done with tears and lonlyness,so tired of those dreams about US that will never come true.What is that thing called love?what is this pain?I am afraid of myself ,I m afraid of being so tupid and naive,but I can t help it.i m still in love with you,I m still dreaming.If only I could change or prove something to you?You are my only one.I can see the whole world in your eyes,I can hear music inside of your heart.Actually YOU r my world.YOU r my music.You r my inspiration ,you r a shining star on my way.I can see how bright and perfect you r but I will never be able to touch you.If only I was strong enough to kill this feeling inside of me,I would never have hard times with myself.I m too dreamy and too weak and childish to accept the fact that some dreams r not gonna turn into reality.I wish I were able to controll my feeling,i wish there were somebody who warned me about you.But there is nothing I can change about my past.If only i could be better,if only you could fall in love with me,if only,if only,if only....